Is this reality

Is this reality? I can't believe what is happening to me. Why must you end up this way?
You stole my heart and now, you are breaking it. How could you be so mean to me?
I still feel and remember how you hug me and whisper to my ear, "Baby, if anything happen
to our relationship, promise me you won't give up on us." and you kissed my forehead.
From that moment, I suspect there's something bad going to happen either to you, or me. I guess, it's
true tho. Tears running down my cheek, the cheek that you've kissed before leaving it like a scar to me. As I was cleaning up my room, I saw our first picture together as couples. The picture we first took when we were cuddling . How I wish I can touch you again, your fine face, hear your heart beating when I hugged you and the most I want to see is..your smile and your laugh.
Crying as hard as I could won't solve the problem. But, what should I do? I can't let you go. I can't throw away our 1 years and 8 months of relationship.
Do you know how much I miss you? A lot of things running through my mind. The feeling of confused, anger and depressed. Maybe, by travelling overseas will make me forget you, erase all of the memories you left with me. Cold night, lonely in the dark, it feels like a doll that have been used and thrown away. It seems like I can't stop myself from crying. After whipping all of my tears, I still crying like how baby miss their pacifier.From far, I can see some couple spending their time together like there's no tomorrow. Am I useless to you? Do you feel like I don't give enough of my love for you? So many questions in my mind now. You could chase after me, and explain to me, but it seems like you don't care. Each time my phone beep~ I glance at it, hoping to see your name on my phone screen.
I know! I was being so stupid and dumb. Maybe i have wronged you or hurt you in one way or the other, But I know you're kind enough to give me another chance. Maybe this is what I experience when when you love someone so much. Maybe this is my reward for being nice.
I really miss you, sometime i sense someone walking to me, i felt it was you, the girl I have been waiting.You hugged me so tight, tight that you make me feel like I'm you pillow. I close my eyes, dream that we can last forever but when I open my eyes, you...you are not here. I was dreaming...that you would come to me. And again I cried leaving like a bucket full of tears. One thing I wish I could have right now is I just want to hold you, touch you, feel you, believe you, and I miss you....